struggles

Everyone has their own problems and struggles.  Struggle to accept reality and etc.  For me, i struggle to fight and control the wolf within me daily. 

我心里的那个名字

刻在我心里的名字，如果有下次我会再爱一次

你的生日一辈子都不会忘

骗

还以为找到了，原来又是另一个骗子

梦可以醒了

这一生就一个人过了

first Christmas without pa n ma

今年是个很寂寞的圣诞。 少了爸爸妈妈。

Feeling very lonely n sad.  Miss the two of them very much

Have been chatting with a guy from china for a month. Nice chap, making my heart fluttered but yet again he could be another fake bastard ready to cheat my money

When will i finally meet a real one?   

Someone whom i can spend the rest of my life with and never be lonely anymore.  

Or maybe I'm really destined to live a life as a celibate n alone. 

遇到了一个让我心动的男生

但是却不敢去爱

怕又是另一个骗局

怕距离太远

怕。。我不能去爱

first birthday without my parents

16 Nov 2021.. first birthday without my parents...

My heart is heavy.

Brother turning cheeky is making me worst.  I rather he not talk to me.

A sign that I'm No longer young and definitely growing older

I miss pa n ma very much.  Wish can hug and kiss them again. 

又想您了

最后一次带您来这时，您有多高兴。 也是您最后一次来这了。永远忘不了你哪兴奋高兴的笑容。好想您，爸爸。