Hello..my future husband. i didnt know how to address you tat is why I'm calling you husband of Ms Tan.
I don't know what kept you so long from appearing. You have missed out my youthful years. But its good that you didnt appear then. I was an unstable kid fighting the symptoms of lupus. it was a tough fight of 20 years. Oh yes still fighting but Mr lupus is more accomodating nowadays. Although at times he will kick up some waves, all is tamed when I'm focus and calm. Oh well long way to go still just hope when you meet me you are able to accept him as part of my life.
I very well know you are not Mr Kane chen. I was crazy over him but somehow i knew you are not him. He taught me a good lesson though.. there is this thing called loving myself so that others can love me.
Perhaps you will be able to love me more when you meet me now than then.
Neither are you are those past crushes..they look cute but just dont click.
You have missed out the most terrrible days of my life. No..its not lupus..its my mum's passing. She left a deep wound in my heart that i wish you are able to heal it. i have to grow up and learn to take careof the household and finances overnight. I'm clueless over finance and how i wish you could be here to help and advise me. How many nights i wept alone in my bedroom. I yearn for a shoulder.. dad's one seems a bit weak now..although its still comforting he's well n with me.
I waited and waited and waited and you still haven't appear. I decided to be strong and move on without you. I miss her very very much. She's was my main support. The reason why active search for you is not important. She's my everything. And now she's gone..
But I'm not going to start this active search. If you are mine..you will appear sooner or later. I believe.
My colleague Sylvia told me from my horoscope a late relationship will benefit me. And you will be the perfect guy. Oh well..she lit some sparkles which make me write this blog page. Haha..mum is going to be real happy to know.
But please.. dont let me wait for too long. Waiting right here.
