Eye

I saw an eye in the sky
Made of clouds
White among the blue skies
As though you are peeking at me
Wondering what makes me sad

妈妈。。又是要圣诞节了。。一年又这样忙忙碌碌的过了。。您好吗。。。
惠娟妹妹阿欛和弟弟从中国来。。阿欛看到您的灵位哭得好伤心。。好久没哭的我看了也想哭了。
您的慈容也感动到中国远方亲戚。我们都很想你。。
我还在等待求职的消息希望能换个新环境。不想再看到因为公司没赚钱而把人炒了。要是您在就好。。好久没讲话

说时依旧

忽然看见他...想起了这首歌
初恋是最难忘的

说时依旧词: 三毛曲: 梁文福
重逢无意中　相见心如麻
对面问安好　不提回头路
提起当年事　蒙眼笑荒唐
我是真的真的真的爱过你
说时依旧　泪如倾
星星白发成少年
这句话请你放在心底
不要告诉任何人你往哪里去
不要　不要　跟我来
家中孩儿等着你
等爸爸回家　把饭开

春天何在

春去秋来
好景不在
五常太快
亲人何在
岁月流失
白发苍苍
独自徘徊
寻寻觅觅
春天何在?

妈妈好久没给您写信, 天堂还适应吗?
骆经理, 大胰丈, 已过世了。 你有看到他在天堂吗? 大胰很伤心。
谢妈妈也过世了, 您有看到他吗? 你们可以和四嫂一起打麻将了!

妈妈不要担心我会难过了。 我想开了。 因为我知道你现在过得比我好。逍遥自在。

妈妈我可否换工作? 最近做得不是很开心。老板什么事都不管了。 公司也没生意。一位好同事也被要求辞职。 懒惰的马屁精们却没事, 看了真不服气。 做到心灰意冷。 我这么拼命是为了什么。

妈妈最近有别的公司要求我的厉录票, 我也给了。 要是适合我的话请让一切顺顺利利。我最担心换了工作没时间照顾爸爸。

妈妈您保佑爸爸不要痴呆太快。 这样就好不要恶化。

妈妈我因该找个女佣吗? 不知道嘞。又怕怕会带给我临外的烦恼。

妈妈您好吗。好想您。

To the future hubby of Ms Tan

Hello..my future husband. i didnt know how to address you tat is why I'm calling you husband of Ms Tan.
I don't know what kept you so long from appearing. You have missed out my youthful years. But its good that you didnt appear then.  I was an unstable kid fighting the symptoms of lupus.  it was a tough fight of 20 years. Oh yes still fighting but Mr lupus is more accomodating nowadays. Although at times he will kick up some waves, all is tamed when I'm focus and calm.  Oh well long way to go still just hope when you meet me you are able to accept him as part of my life.

I very well know you are not Mr Kane chen. I was crazy over him but somehow i knew you are not him. He taught me a good lesson though.. there is this thing called loving myself so that others can love me.
Perhaps you will be able to love me more when you meet me now than then.
Neither are you are those past crushes..they look cute but just dont click.

You have missed out the most terrrible days of my life. No..its not lupus..its my mum's passing.  She left a deep wound in my heart that i wish you are able to heal it.  i have to grow up and learn to take careof the household and finances overnight. I'm clueless over finance and how i wish you could be here to help and advise me.  How many nights i wept alone in my bedroom.  I yearn for a shoulder.. dad's one seems a bit weak now..although its still comforting he's well n with me. 

I waited and waited and waited and you still haven't appear. I decided to be strong and move on without you. I miss her very very much.  She's was my main support. The reason why active search for you is not important. She's my everything.  And now she's gone..

But I'm not going to start this active search. If you are mine..you will appear sooner or later. I believe.

My colleague Sylvia told me from my horoscope a late relationship will benefit me. And you will be the perfect guy. Oh well..she lit some sparkles which make me write this blog page.  Haha..mum is going to be real happy to know.

But please.. dont let me wait for too long.  Waiting right here.

好像听到您在呼唤我的名。。。我是疯了吗?