Alone i walk

Alone i walk
On this rocky path call Life
Boulders and rocks block my path
I trip i fall i crawl
I cry i whine i scream and i cursed
I still need to move on
Before i can see my mum and God
On the other side of the path

1pm. Lunch time! Finally!
A break from a busy morning
With a mind all about work work n more work
I pick up the phone
Wanting to disturb you n hear your voice
Then i realise
You are no longer with me...

Heaven's window

8Among the clouds
A ray of morning sun shone
Shining onto the waken earth
A window it resembles
As if you are peering out
Waving at me from heaven's window
I wave back to you

Shouting out loud like we used to
Morning MaMa! I'm going to work now! Bye! Watch out for papa for me yah?! Love you!
Oh oh boss finally promoted me! Double too!  But salary no change! Love you mama

Passerbys look at me in awe.. I'm after all in hougang..

Its the festive season and I'm missing you badly

The house forever in dust
From.the neighbouring construction
From.your absence of a year
Looking at our photos
I had promised you i will cry no more
But the tears still aren't that obedient

New year?

Happy is no longer in my dictionary
New year seems meaningless
Its another step nearer to the end

You look at me with unwilling eyes
Your pouted lips is a sign of defiance
Your refusal to wave goodbye
Is to tell me you do not want to go.
My heart aches every morning
Sending you off to day care centre
How i wish i can spent every hour with you
Bring you out to your favourite coffee place
Take you out for shopping trips and long walks in the park
But the reality of life tied me down
The need for the dollar sign to keep us all alive and well
Dear papa it hurts me so very much to send you off when you can enjoy your freedom at home sleeping and doing the things you want.
My tears rolled daily when i see your van goes off.
I really wish i had more time with you.
I do not wish to regret like what i did to mummy when work held me down and i simply have no time for her

Eye

I saw an eye in the sky
Made of clouds
White among the blue skies
As though you are peeking at me
Wondering what makes me sad

妈妈。。又是要圣诞节了。。一年又这样忙忙碌碌的过了。。您好吗。。。
惠娟妹妹阿欛和弟弟从中国来。。阿欛看到您的灵位哭得好伤心。。好久没哭的我看了也想哭了。
您的慈容也感动到中国远方亲戚。我们都很想你。。
我还在等待求职的消息希望能换个新环境。不想再看到因为公司没赚钱而把人炒了。要是您在就好。。好久没讲话