first birthday without my parents

16 Nov 2021.. first birthday without my parents...

My heart is heavy.

Brother turning cheeky is making me worst.  I rather he not talk to me.

A sign that I'm No longer young and definitely growing older

I miss pa n ma very much.  Wish can hug and kiss them again. 

又想您了

最后一次带您来这时，您有多高兴。 也是您最后一次来这了。永远忘不了你哪兴奋高兴的笑容。好想您，爸爸。

what if..

I met a young.boy in his secondary school uniform on my way to my condo. We boarded the same bus and alighted and same stop. As i walk up the staircase and tap on the gate, he followed behind me and i opened for him.  And as we walked to my block he was in front of me, haha we stayed at the same block. He in turn opened the gate for me. And even get into the same lift. It appears tat he is my neighbour.  He gives me the feel of a honely good boy. And i start to think, if i had married early,my son would be his age 😅. I guess i had missed out the golden years. 

5 months on...

Everyone i met kept telling me with a big smile, wah.. now u no more burden, no more stress.  

Yes, there's no more stress.  But i am not happy about it. A awkward feeling of calm. Or shall i say, blank.  No feel of pain, grieve, sadness, happiness whatsoever.  Just blank.

I miss my Daddy.

到处是孤独星

原来这世上有很多孤独星星

每个在寻在爱情，寻找依靠

孤独星6

孤独星原来是个骗局

骗了感情，骗了钱财

愿孤独星女能找到真爱

孤独星男会被捉收到法律制裁，不让他再到处骗人

孤独星 5

若孤独星男， 不再理会孤独星女的话

就把他当成一个美丽的邂逅吧

至少在那一个半月里，有人关心过我

晚安是你对我說的最后一句话

留了一个问号。 

到底发生了什么事?