wat family?

The family splits the moment mom left

The family is gone the moment dad decide to shut off from the world. 

The brother i know is dead the moment u put your hands around my neck threatening to kill n rape me

I tried to forgive u. But the scar on my arm tells me not to. 

I wanted to teach u how to survive on your own when i leave, but the stubborn u refused to put down your ego to learn

I wanted to help you save money but you refused thinking I'm using your money

You are one stupid bastard who thinks  you know everything but you do not. This ego of yours will kill u, 

I'm glad i wont be around to see

Your mother tries to teach you but you scolded n abuse her love for u. 

And you are doing the same to your sister. 

N yes i hate you to the core. 

You are like the devil trying to disturb my peace whenever i am reaching the peaceful mind. 

You are the big fat leech sucking me dry of my resources 

I know u hate me. I hate u just as much 

what if

He excitedly show me his new phone. Still nicely placed in the package 

He's waiting for me to help him setup. As always. 

I threw him the qns.. wat if i threw into a fit n never regained consciousness n never make my way home.  

So ypur phone will never be setup?

movie damcing with the wolf

Scene

She arrive at airport, he was there. 

She ran towards him. They hug. She cant control anymore and cried. She had held her tears long enough. The loss of her father was just too much for her,  years of putting up a strong outfront after her mother's death. The strong wall finally brke apart

5 years on

5 years on..

I have my 3 Cs but you are not around to enjoy with me

There are a lot more new delicious eateries but i have to eat alone imagine u are beside me

I have new gossips cant wait to share with you but i can only speak to your altar imagining u can hear me from up there

I want to complain about the nasty people i met at work but i can knly write here in my blog n suck in the anger

I have made new decisions, i wish to share with you.. but .. i can only let my tears roll 

家

当回到家却再也没有人对你关心的笑了。

再也不会有人会对我关心的笑

爸爸再也不会笑，妈妈已经不在了

40

16.  Sweet sixteen was even sweeter when i know i made it to a junior college.

17.  Never have i thought i would live to see my 18th birthday.  Thank God i did.  And there's a new guy in my life called...lupus.

37.  Never have i thought i would lose my mum to cancer. 

40.  Never have i thought i would live to see myself at 40.  And never have i thought that i have to face Alzheimer with Dad. Long fight ahead

Love

Have you ever love someone in a way that when he or she's gone for a short trip.. you cry everyday until he or she is back by your side?

Have you ever love someone such that when you need to share his or her love with others you get so angry with jealousy?

Have you ever love someone so much that only you and you alone can be allowed to scold him or her and no one else?

Have you love so much that you need to hear his or her voice daily?

Have you love so much that when he or she's gone forever you are filled with anger with grief with lost with despair ?

I have...